Sunday, November 20, 2016

Live Beautifully

A couple of months ago, I created an Instagram account. I am not a big social media guru by any means; facebook is enough for me to keep up with. But, I joined Instagram because there are people I wanted to follow.

One of those I follow does beautiful brush calligraphy, something I have been trying to teach myself. Not only is her lettering lovely and elegant, but she adds swirls and flourishes and layers of colors that are the perfect finishing touch. I have no fantasy of ever creating anything even close to the quality of her work (she’s a professional artist), but I have been having fun in my free time. I don’t have much of that these days, but I try to take 30 minutes or so a few mornings or evenings each week to practice. Cuz as the beautiful letterer that I follow says, “Practice makes perfect!” J
The above title of this post, in her graceful writing, was at the top of my Instagram feed one early morning a couple of weeks ago.

Live Beautifully.
I stared at it for a few seconds and let it soak in before scrolling down the page. Then, there it was again. And again. This person also has daily lettering challenges, and I follow some of those who participate in them. Apparently, “Live Beautifully” was her challenge of the day.  

I had a busy day at work, but as I went about my tasks, I kept that thought and what it means close: Live Beautifully.
When I got home from work, I again took a few moments to peruse Instagram while dinner was cooking.  And you guessed it, there it was again. I saw it three more times in the minute or two that I was looking at Instagram that evening.

And in yet one more case of “How scary and mind reading can the internet really be?” when I got on facebook the next day, there in the sidebar where all of those annoying ads magically appear, was an advertisement from Amazon for a book called, “Living Beautifully: With Uncertainty and Change.” No, I am NOT making that up! I don’t know if by me clicking on a few of the Live Beautifully calligraphy photos some signal went zooming through the world wide web straight to facebook, but wow, how very bizarre. (By the way, I did purchase the book on my Kindle because it was too intriguing NOT to. I haven’t read it yet, though).
Two simple words, but they have had a profound impact on me these past few weeks.

They have been a kick in the pants that I really have needed.
I haven’t been living so beautifully lately.  The past months have been filled to the brim with frustrations and problems from every direction…my job, my kids and life in general. I so often trudge through each day in an endless parade of sleep, work, deal with problems, sleep, work, deal with problems...

 My house still is not back in order, which surely has not helped, and I have been finding it most difficult to even enjoy being at home like I normally do when life is crazy. My home has not been the snug and comfortable haven I try to make it be. It’s still fairly devoid of furniture and most everything is still packed away in boxes and bags in the basement; I hadn’t even decked my house out for fall like I normally do because it seemed pointless when so many things are unfinished and uncertain and in disarray. (If I had to choose a word to describe my life right now, that would be it…DISARRAY).
I seem to be at a crossroads in more than one area of my life. I want a job change, but I’m not sure how to go about it since I actually love the work I do, just not the actual JOB anymore. Everything is so out of whack and downright distressing with my parents, and I am trying to come to terms with that in a way that I never have before. I’m having a tough time transitioning from a mom who is used to having what is going on with my kids rule my life to being an almost empty nester with way too much time on my hands some days. I’m having an even tougher time transitioning from a mom who could fix a child’s problem with a hug, a batch of cookies and putting them on my lap to read a good night story. This is perhaps what I am struggling with most of all…being a mom to adults and all that entails.

And then, there is my house. Back in April when we decided to put down new floors, I was beyond excited, as I’ve written before. It is now November, and after so many setbacks and changes of plans, the house is still in chaos, which isn’t helping my mood any.
I have been so focused on the inside of my house that the outside was sorely neglected to the point where I was beginning to feel embarrassed by it while wondering every day as I pulled into my driveway what the neighbors must think.

Most of my kitchen necessities are not yet unpacked, so I have not been cooking very much. Since cooking is something I always enjoy, especially when I am frazzled and in need of something to take my frustrations away, not having what I need to make anything beyond the basics has caused me feel out of sorts  and out of patience.   
I would never have dreamed back in April that our house would be in this condition for so long. It’s probably a good thing I didn’t, because I doubt I would have taken it on.

After seeing that “Live Beautifully” quote, and really letting those words embed themselves into my brain, I realized that I have been putting things I enjoy on hold until:
My house is finished…

Things at Share slow down…
Issues with my kids are resolved…

Issues with my parents are resolved…
I have the money to __________...

Yada yada yada…and on and on and on.
I realized there always seems to be something that I let stand in my way.  

And that is not living beautifully.
Pondering all of the ways I have not been living beautifully lately segued into giving some thought about what living beautifully means to me. I have narrowed it down to a short(ish) list:

*It means coming home each day to a restful home. (Even if it is not in perfect shape and there are unfinished projects)
*It means spending time with and talking to people I love. (Even when life is kicking my butt and I don’t feel like I have much to offer other than a foul mood)

*It means taking time each day to notice, really notice the blessings and beautiful things around me. (Even when they are next to impossible to find)
*It means feeling good about what I do each day. (Even during times when work is stressing me out and I am feeling more hate than love for my job)

*It means doing things for the people I love to let them know how much I love them.  (Even when I am exhausted and want to hibernate and/or run away)
*It means making time to do things I enjoy. (Even if I am super busy and the only time I have is 10 minutes in the morning to have coffee on my porch before work)

Like I said, I’ve been thinking about how to live beautifully a lot in the past few weeks, and I have to say, it has made a difference in so many of my days. Again, I have written a shortish list.
*Even though there is still a hole in my kitchen ceiling due to an unresolved plumbing issue and the baseboards and molding around the French doors are unfinished, I was tired of looking at my beautiful new kitchen that was still “undecorated.” I bought a new tablecloth, futzed up the top of the cabinets, bought a new lamp, and hoped that making the kitchen look warm and cozy would help me to ignore the giant hole in the ceiling. It didn’t quite do that, but it is much homier now, and I try to not look up very often.

 
 

 


 
*Even though I still don’t have blinds or curtains or a rug in the family room, I have slowly started putting that room back together.
 
 I found these candles on clearance at Michaels, and I had to have them because they really add a warm fall touch to the room at night. They also make me think of Brandon and the beautiful aspen trees in Colorado. I was inspired by something I saw on Pinterest and purchased the metal bin with clear glass bottles. I added some fake greenery and some colored flat marbles that I already had, and I love how it turned out.
 
 

I also bought a Rosemary bush. I haven’t yet unpacked the other items that are normally on this table, but the plant smells so good, AND, I can use snips of it when I cook.
 
*Even though my dining room is completely bare other than the table, I decided to go ahead and pretty it up for the season like I enjoy doing. I always have fun trying to be creative and mix and match what I already own to come up with an interesting table setting. I picked the acorns off the ground at the park the day of the Share walk.
 

 
I have probably written more than enough for one post, but I want to share a few more photos.
*I finally decided to clean up the porch, weed, throw away the leftover dead summer flowers, and make it look fallish. (Even though my front door looks like crap because the door frame needs to be replaced and the door itself needs to be painted)



Once I decided to decorate for fall, I went all out. Again inspired by Pinterest, I put together this basket that sits by my front door. (Even though the staircase it sits next too is ugly and still unfinished!) There are a few pine cones in there that I gathered a few years ago when I was visiting a friend in Maine. They were in her back yard, and every fall when I get them out, they bring back such fond memories. I also tossed in a few cinnamon pine cones from a bag I bought at the grocery store, so it smells delicious as soon as I walk in the door. The other nice thing about this basket is that I didn’t have to buy one thing (other than the cinnamon pine cones) because I used what I already had in a new way.

 
(Ugly staircase!)
 
 
I also found this woodsy pumpkin, a real bargain for only $9 at Kirkland’s a month or so ago. I hung it on the pantry door (that still is waiting for me to paint it).


I will close with one last photo. Remember how this post started, with my admiration of an artist and her brush calligraphy? I was so inspired by her words and artistry that I made my own version of Live Beautifully in my own brush calligraphy, embellished by my own art work. I’m no artist, and I will never be one, but I don’t think it turned out too shabby. I framed it and found a place for it in the corner of my desk. My hope is that it will keep on inspiring me to live beautifully.


 

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